The day after the storm....

A storm was brewing, clouds had been over my head for months. There was always rain, but some days it fucking poured. Its hard to weather the storms of life alone, I've always been able to take getting a little wet as long as I could see clear sky up ahead. But no... there was no clear sky, there was just more gloomy darkness. 

After a storm there is always a mess, the things that were broken this time can never be fixed. And somehow I am at ease with this, the storm swirled over my head, the waves were crashing hard against the shore, the lightening was so close.... and I survived.. 

The sun did come out, and this day is so much brighter... There is a huge weight off my shoulders, its like being able to take your first clear crisp breath after being submerged in water. 

I won't let anything stop me on my journey, I wanted to eat my entire kitchen last night. And i didn't I ate my portions, I wanted to binge on candy, cupcakes you name it.. (not that i had those things, but i wanted them so badly).. But I didn't I live really close to a cupcake shop, I could walk it easily but I don't... I never walk there because it is a weakness of mine. I make sure that anytime I leave the house on my own, that no matter how tempting it is never to cross the street. I don't need them, and just like those cupcakes that are bad for me... what happened yesterday I see the as the same thing, it was bad for me... 

It is going to be a beautiful day, I am having a amazing friend over and we are going to rock it likes its 1999.. Sometimes its better just to take out the garbage so the house doesn't stink anymore... I am going to embrace the real friends I have, and enjoy the love and support I have been getting since yesterday. 

Though this storm is certainly over forever, it taught me a very valuable lesson. Be careful who you trust, the devil was once an angel.  

Well thats all for today my pretty little losers <3 From your favorite Villainess N!